{THE EULOGY OF MY UNCARING; THE ELEGY OF MY APATHY} {DEAR DIARY: Diary Of The Man Behind The Mask}
Saturday, September 04, 2004
That's the amount of time i have not seen her and it seems like forever. 70.5hr started from Sunday night after sending her home after the Sentosa trip. I was lost in my world that day too bothered by my problems hoping that darling doesn't get affected by it. But good thing is she was enjoying herself until before i left she ask me if i'm feeling troubled. Things spiced up a bit during these few days so on Wed i decided to give her a little surprise by dropping her place downstair to pass her my melody, thinking that will cheer her up. That explains for the deduction of 0.17 hr. But since then the distant seems more vivd and this morning she told me that she need to time to be alone and the fact that she's leaving in feb sunken my heart. 37hr refers to the time as of till now. X hr refers to more to come before she decides to see me again. Why is two person in love yet suffering in such state? Why all wrong things are happening one by one? Why is everything in my life going the wrong way? So many whys. I never believe in isolation because it's numbing the relationship in a slow manner, but all i can do is wait and hope our love can substant. Such mockery my life has turn into. Nothing seems to be on my side. Every minute every second from now on seems like it's moving so slowly. Perhaps I should get a distraction in life too but I know it isn't my style. Such torture. I'm never a believer but the irony of this song explains it.
I Think God Can Explain by Splender
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah
The scent of vaseline in the summertime
The feel of an ice cube melting over time
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah
That's it. Time, Luck, love. That's all I ask for only.
Bambino D 4:03 am
Who Am I?
Name:Don
Bdae:Month & Date Of An Capricorn
Nicks:CaPriUdoN
Motto:Love is a lie which humans chose to believe
Contact:www.i_love_soba@yahoo.com.sg
When everything is nothing, and nothing is everything
Each day is an endless race like a moth flying aimlessly towards the light
Slowly bit by bit my soul is rotting
I just need to lose myself
Music
Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song: Knockin on Heavens Door
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